1. I just came back from a particular meeting for a production. Being the good enough stage manager that I am, I am maintaining my integrity and cannot discuss the situation or whatever happened at this point in time. Just know that I am in a lot of pressure because I am expected by some to do my job well (since I have been trained in this area of expertise), but there are others who don’t know their boundaries and are stepping on my toes. I will really have to step up and make my position known.
2. Shit that thing is totally bogging me down. I can’t seem to concentrate about anything else. I am nervous that I’m going to do something wrong because everyone wants different things!
3. I was talking to “a skillful friend who can drink, eat, and imitate”, who was giving me a lift home, about our (my family’s) summer “plans”. Well, we have none, really. Then I told her how my younger brother (soon to be 19) is bumming around the house all day, not looking for a job and not taking summer classes. I am doing pretty much the same, except I am currently stage managing TWO shows. So I don’t bum around the house as much as he does. But still, I don’t have an income (because those are volunteer jobs). I could go back to my old job at Subway, making near-to-perfection sandwishes for costumers to enjoy (yes it does make a difference in the taste). But I think I can do better than that. I tried looking for a more decent job than sandwish artist, but so far no luck. It looks like I may have to go back afterall. I should probably give them a call soon to see if they’ll let me go back and/or have any shifts for me.
Having said that, I suddenly realize how scary it is to for an entire family to live without a steady income! We’re spending money which my mom saved her whole life (more or less) for! I suddenly feel how dire the situation is when she talks about re-painting the house and ‘fixing’ our backyard. I picture a blackhole opening up in the middle of our house and sucking all of our money in until we have none. We can no longer pay for electricity, running water, heat, and food! I open the front door only to find my brother watching television with the bright lights on and my mom using the laptop nearby (at 12:45pm!!!). I suddenly felt the urge to turn off all lights and finish our tasks in the dark… I can see money flying away each minute the lights are on. AHHHHHHhh! I should really give them a call SOON!
4. Also another note on our financial situation… I owe my mom around $850 for misc things (mostly film, which cost about $600+), and still have to deal with student loans before July 1st =___= aiyaa can’t afford to pay for entertainment in the next two months!
5. Hoping to take a trip down south in August and hopefully make my “sore spot” better. lol I have two travelmates lined up and ready to rock! ;)
6. Well, if my girlfriend says it’s okay, i SAY… IT’S TIME TO PAR-TAY!!! (Shit, I am psyched! This is too awesome <3)
