1. I just came back from a particular meeting for a production. Being the good enough stage manager that I am, I am maintaining my integrity and cannot discuss the situation or whatever happened at this point in time. Just know that I am in a lot of pressure because I am expected by some to [...]
Archive for June, 2009
UGH It’s a total mess!
Posted in Rants, What's going through my head on June 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Playing With Expectations
Posted in A Poetic Spin, tagged 5 senses, expectations, never, poetry, waiting on June 24, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Hoping
but never wishing
Listening
but never hearing
Watching
but never seeing
Searching
but never looking
Talking
but never speaking
Sobbing
but never crying
Hugging
but never embracing
Sketching
but never drawing
Scribbling
but never writing
Pondering
but never thinking
Leaping
but never jumping
Strolling
but never walking
Yelling
but never shouting
Insulting
but never offending
Concealing
but never hiding
Heartbreaking
but never hurting
Waiting
but never meeting
Dearest Fynn
Posted in Others and me, tagged friends for ever, fynn, long distance relationship, missed chances, missed connections on June 22, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw you by the registration table. It was really you! After I don’t know how many years, I finally got to see you again. All the heart-warming memories of the time spent in my room playing the guitar and taking pictures of you in a cowboy [...]
The Other Place
Posted in Category fails (misfits), tagged Blogs, past, windows live spaces on June 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I never mentioned this before. I moved here (to this blog) from my Windows Live Spaces blog. But I kinda wish I had started everything here. My first blog post there was in August 2005 (Yeah, way back when I was going into grade 12). As the time progressed, I added more entires.
Reading them in chronological order [...]
Protected: Vulgarity Warning: the following post may be offensive to some viewers
Posted in Rants, tagged hypothetical questions, moving away, starting new, what ifs on June 19, 2009 | Enter your password to view comments
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A Different Kind of Death
Posted in A Poetic Spin on June 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
After years of searching
Knowing what I want
I finally discovered
Who I am
But it’s killing me
It cannot be
I cannot be
It’s too hard
It’s more than a decision–
Unpredictable consequences
That I cannot own up to
I simply pretend
To play the innocent game
Disguising and hiding myself
From my dear yet subjective friends
I become two to adapt
Each side conceals itself so well
When the other [...]
Protected: My Heart’s Bleeding Purple
Posted in What's going through my head, tagged dilemma, who I am, who I should be on June 18, 2009 | Enter your password to view comments
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If I were a boy
Posted in What's going through my head, tagged boy, guy, if, if i was a boy, life, male, masculinity, men, sex on June 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
This song came on the radio, and it led me to think about all the different possibilities and chances I’d get if I was a boy. My life would change drastically. For the better? For the worse? Who knows, maybe it would be just as sad. But if I was a boy, mom wouldn’t get on my case [...]
Letting it go
Posted in Others and me, tagged closure, dream, girlfriend, letting go, Others and me, phone, summer, you on June 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I open up a new post, but my mind’s drawing a blank for words. I think of possible topics, but I can’t think about anything other than you. I scroll down to your name in my phone’s contact list and stare for a while.
I know you won’t be there to pick up. I know that [...]
