I never saw this coming. It kept me up until 2:30am.
And somehow, when I should be happy, I’m not. I am, frankly, a little upset. My heart is feeling empty. But this feeling shouldn’t exist! I mean, why do I care? It’s not like I am feeling what I used to feel about you. I guess I cared more about you than I realized. It’s still a wonder why I never acted upon my feelings back then. Okay, I guess I do have a couple ideas why… the thing is I missed my chance!!!
I’ll probably never get a chance now because of this “situation”. Sorry, guys, I am having a hard time accepting the facts. I still can’t cope with the news. Actually, I don’t WANT to learn to accept, I don’t want to COPE… I want this nightmare to be over!
You probably don’t care about what I’m saying. I mean, you SHOULD NOT take this post seriously because I want you to be happy. Your happiness comes before mine. I’m just saying that it hurt, still does, and probably will for as long as I know you.
It’s a challenge for me now to see how long I can play the denying card.
